January 12, 2010 - Tuesday

Last night, I went to bed at around twelve. I was just there with my eyes closed, thinking about life. I was also thinking of sleeping but actually sleeping, that I could not do. Why? I don't really know. Luckily, after thirty minutes of tossing and turning in my bed, I finally fell asleep... for a bit.

Yup, that wasn't the end of my little insomnia.

I awoke suddenly, looked out my window, thought it was around four or five already but no. I checked the time in my mobile phone - one o'clock. Oh great, I said to myself. I tried so hard to make my self fall asleep but all tricks failed. I tried the oldest trick in the book in great hope I was gonna succeed. I counted sheep. Epic phail.

So, for about two hours, I was in my bed tossing and turning while I wished for sleep to come to me.

Then and only then, I remembered this method I had of making myself fall asleep.

It was by thinking about myself in a bed thinking about myself thinking about myself thinking and so on. 


Sounds really confusing but guess what? It worked.

Next thing I know, I wake up to the voice of my brother saying, ''Pahiram ng cellphone mo.'' He wanted my phone for some reason. I searched for my mobile and then handed it to him with my eyes half open. I rubbed my eyes and eventually sense entered me. ''Bakit? Ano gagawin mo?'' He was halfway out my room pressing buttons in my phone. He didn't bother answering me.

I was actually pretty happy when I left my house to go to school. The reason behind the happiness was that class starts at eleven unlike the usual time.

But damn, the wind was so harsh this morning.


I waited for the bus for about thirty minutes. Every other bus number came except my bus number. I felt completely numb because of the coldness. But when the bus did arrive, I sort of celebrated by jumping up and down, I was just so happy.


School was fine today, not much of a terror. They're probably going easy on us 'cause it's our first day back. But whatever.


I'm thinking I said way too much or went too detailed in some parts.
So I'll just end this by saying this thing I've wanted to say for a long time:
There's this invisible barrier between us that stops me from liking you more than friends. It's really good to know it's there 'cause if it hadn't, damn, i'd have a broken heart right now.